9 sep 11

Asked Michael to sail the grand line with me (watch Infinity Castle in theaters). He has left be on read. it's been around 8 hours. Relieved that he's read them. Anticipating his reply. I want to be closer friends with him but I also have occasional romantic feelings. As friends, him not expecting him replying to everything I send but allowing me to send whatever is a boundary he's set. I'm ok with it. I just wished that he would respond faster or be more committed into our friendship. More deep, emotional responses. When he responds, albeit shallowly, I get a small rush of dopamine. Glad that he responds. His sense of humour is different??? He's funny but it's not the kind of humour that bounces off of mine? 

"Krillin can't go super saiyan cause he's bald"
"No, it's cause he's human."
"No, it's cause he's bald. What do all saiyans have in common? Hair. Goku, gohan, goten, trunks, vegeta"
"Then what about Yamcha?"
"Cause he's Yamcha"

Malinda has been more responsive. I told her about therapy and working on being a fearful avoidant adult. She's more responsive to my jokes. It doesn't feel like I'm spamming her. Her humour matches mine. 

Doran responds pretty quickly too. I'm not invested in the friendship though. I have no motivation to hang out irl frequently. We are going to a Flow concert and I have no plans to make plans after that. He is funny and we joke around. His sense of humour is similar to me.